in ~ ten ~ tion: inˈten(t)SH(ə)n/
1. a thing intended; an aim or plan; “she was full of good intentions”
2. MEDICINE: the healing process of a wound
Interesting. I didn’t really think of the meaning of the word intention past the idea of it being a committed plan of sorts. Seeing the secondary meaning, the healing process of a wound, suddenly I am seeing my April intentions in a slightly different light. It seems really fitting to think of my attempt to regain my healthy ways as more of a repairing of a wounded habit. When we get right down to it, I know how to do this. This is, in fact, a mindset I used to carry me through races and to help motivate others while coaching. It is a reestablishment of the connection between my mind and my body. A way to get them talking to each other in a supportive relationship.
So, with this in mind, here is a little update on my healing process:
1. Write every.single.day. Whew. This is still a difficult thing. I have three new poems, and dammit, I’m counting this blog post for today!
2. Keep the food log a rolling…easy. Did that. Ate the cupcake.
3. Maintain Strength Training. Not so easy to keep the training plan. It turns out I need specifics here. Guess it is the personal trainer in me. I did a lovely workout yesterday and did an hour of yoga for strength this weekend. I feel positive about the commitment to putting in the time, but am wary of the idea of not having a solid plan. I struggle with this every.single.time and really need to break the need to over-schedule myself but manage to keep myself on track and on task. The trick is to make sure I don’t over-train and leave myself unable to meet my other intention…
4. Run once a week. SUCCESS! Ran a slow and pleasurable 5km last week. It was great. However, as this also falls into the category of need a plan / way to go forward with a strong commitment to myself.
So far, so good. I am meeting my own goals on my own terms and right now, that’s about all I can ask of me.